I've decided to start this journal, seperate from my normal day to day journal for a few reasons. The first, was so that I myself would have something to document my spirital growth, and to help me remain focused. The second was in hopes that someone, anyone, would stumble across this journal and feel a connection with what I express, and maybe help them on their spiritual path.
I am a lightworker. And beyond that, I believe that I am an Incarnated Angel. I choose to come to earth before my incarnation for a purpose, to help heal others and hence, the earth. I have always been very interested in spirituality, but never really found a religion that fit. Something about it always felt 'constricting' or just not right. I have always had the inate feeling that I am here for a purpose, but I could never figure out just what that purpose was. I've always felt that everything and everyone is connected in what I like to call The Dance. The Dance is everything. Every action and reaction. Cause and effect. And I've always known that life is what you make it! There are no coincidences.
Then, spontaniously, my mother bought be a book by the wonderful Doreen Virtue, Ph.D. The book was called Healing with Faeries. As I begane to read the book, I found myself going "THATS RIGHT! That's what I've felt all along, I just couldn't find the words to put it into logical thought!". Along with those realizations came a lot of information that I connected with, that filled the gaps in my spiritual beliefs, and gave me quite a bit to think about. I believe that I was meant to get that book in that point in time, and the elementals and angels made sure that I got it, through my beautiful mother.
When I came to the section in the book about incarnated elementals, Doreen started explaining how some of them look, feel, act, etc. I was highly interested in this section, and came to realize that quite a few of my close friends were incarnated Faeries and other elemental beings. Then she came to the section about incarnated Angels. Sitting in my car, reading as fast as I could before I had to go to work, I began to cry. I was an Angel.
Later, a close friend of mine also delving into any spiritual text he could get his hands on, suggest that we try a past life exorsize together. We sat in a dimly lit area, removed anything covering our faces ( glasses, hats, makeup, etc. ), and sat facing each other. We took deep cleansing breaths, in your nose and out your mouth, and focused on each others auras. We have continously experimented with each others auras, so this was the easy part. After we were attuned, each of us held our hand over half of our faces. We stared at the exposed part of each others faces, allowing ourselves to fall into a trance like state. Shortly, I watched as his face contorted and reformed into a beautiful egyptian girl. I told him what I saw and immideatly his face contorted once more. When it cleared, he was now a black man with a strong jaw and large nose. His eyes held pain and anger. It was then that he dropped his hand and said that he wasn't sure if I'd had any past lives because all he could see with me was blackness. Frowning, he told me to put my hand back up and relax more, and just let him focus on me. After a few minutes, in which I had fallen into a very open and trance like state, he excitedly shook my shoulder exlaiming "I think you were an Angel!". He then described that during our last attempt, he had allowed the blackness to take over my face. Shortly after that, stars had appeared. After another minute, he saw me flying through the stars, illuminated with my own inner light. I was extatic that he had confirmed my beliefs that I was an incarnated angel.
After a few months, I lost my copy of Healing with Faeries ( it ended up in the hands of a friend, as I belive was meant to be ) and wished to buy another copy of it. However, that book was still fresh in my mind, so instead I purchased another book by Doreen Virtue called Angel Medicine. I went home with my mother, promptly forgot entirely about the book, and went home. At a later date, I decided that I was ready to buy another copy of Healing with Faeries and headed to the local Barns & Noble. However they were currently sold out, so instead I bought The Lightworkers Way, again by Doreen Virtue. I was almost finished with the book, when my sister brought me Angel Medicine and mentioned that I had forgotten it that day, and it had somehow ended up in her room. I flipped open the book and read the first few pages of it, and realized that none of this would have made as much of an impact on me if I had not previously read The Lightworkers Way. Again, I believe that the angels were working to make sure that Doreen's teachings had the most impact on me. I am now currently reading Angel Medicine and loving every word.
I plan on reading all the books Doreen has published, and am excitedly waiting to see what she comes out with next. I also would like to get into A Course in Miracles.
If anyone has any suggestions for good reading, classes, etc, please let me know.
Also, the purpose of this journal is to expand my spiritual growth. So please feel free to start a debate in any of my posts. I will happily join in. However, rudeness will not be tolerated, so please be honestly interested, and not condesending.